Changing myself

I think about this question a lot. It’s a question that I think everybody thinks about in a good or bad way. For me when I first think of the question I want to go to how caring I am. I may seem like a bad thing but an example would be like today. I do so much for others because I feel like I have to because I care so much about what they think if I say no that I’ve mentally exhausted myself where I don’t want to do anything for myself. I had to force myself to make dinner tonight because I was too tired too because I was too busy dealing with other people’s stuff. I think another thing I instantly think of is I’m too emotional. I cry over everything. I see someone like my sister Emily who has no emotion and a good way. Not to say that she’s doesn’t have emotions but she’s so strong-willed and doesn’t care what people think she’s just herself and that’s something I wish I could do. I cry over everything and if I get a feeling that someone doesn’t like me I hate it. I definitely gotten better especially the same people but overall I just wish I was emotionless sometimes.

Whether there’s something you want to change or not you are absolutely amazing the way you are. I just wish I had people who told that so I’ll be that person for you. I love you guys so much and no matter what I’m always here for you.