Hey everyone,
This might sound a bit crazy (which I totally am), but I really dislike this picture of my sister holding Willow. Let’s rewind and dive into the story behind it.
My beautiful niece, Willow, was born in August. The day after her arrival, we went over to meet her, and I instantly fell in love. She’s just so perfect! Of course, we all took photos of our first moments with her to cherish forever.
If you’ve been following along, you know about my youngest sister, Emily. We have a complicated relationship. Emily can be mentally and physically abusive to me, but she’s nice in front of others so no one suspects a thing. Despite this, we do have our good moments, and on this particular day, we were getting along fine.
My cousin took this picture of Emily holding Willow, and it’s really cute because Emily is genuinely smiling—a rare and real smile. So, why do I hate it? Well, it has everything to do with my dad.
A few days after taking the pictures, I sent them to my dad. He texted my Tia (his sister) saying that he loves the photo of Emily and that it’s the only thing keeping him happy. Naturally, Tia asked about the photo of me, and he responded that it was okay, but not cute. Now, every time I talk to him, he brings up that photo of Emily, and it just breaks my heart.
This isn’t an isolated incident. My dad always seems to showcase and talk about photos of Emily. It’s not that I’m jealous—I’ve moved past that. But it hurts deeply to feel like my photos or myself aren’t good enough to show off. Knowing that Emily, the sister who abuses me, makes him happy while I, the one who does everything, don’t, is incredibly painful.
It’s hard to look at the photos from that day because of Emily. Even now, a few months later, my dad only wants photos of Emily or Sarah (Willow’s mother) holding the baby. These emotions have tainted my first-time meeting Willow, turning what should be a happy memory into a bittersweet one. No one knows how I truly feel about this, which is why I’m pouring my heart out here. Thank you for letting me rant, and as always, I’ll see you in the next post!
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