As of writing this, itās the day after my birthday. And wow⦠yāall have been asking for an update, so here it is. Buckle up.

Letās start with the obvious: Emily is back to full-blown bitch mode. I wish I could say I was surprised, but nope. On my birthday, she looked me in the eye and said (and yes, I have it on recording):
āNo one is forcing you to be alive. Twenty-eight years ago, Mom made the biggest regret of her life.ā
So yeah. That happened. But rememberāIām the problem, right?
Then I woke up to a text from Sarah saying āHappy Birthday.ā And I just replied, āUm ok.ā Because what the actual fuck. You donāt get to send me birthday wishes like everythingās fine when you cut me off and took my abuserās side. You donāt get to play nice when you helped paint me as the villain.

And just a few days before that? She texted Tia asking what we were doing for Thanksgiving. Like⦠what is going through her mind? I will not be seeing her. Iām not playing pretend. Iām not doing the āfamily for the holidaysā performance when the wounds are still fresh and the gaslighting is still active.
But not everything is a dumpster fire.
Things with my dad have actually been really good. Heās been taking his meds, going to his doctor appointments, and weāve been talking more. Hanging out with him has been healing in a way I didnāt expect. Itās calm. Itās real. And I love getting to spend time with him without the chaos.
So yeah, thatās where Iām at. A little older, a little wiser, a lot more done with the bullshit. Iām choosing peace, truth, and people who actually show up. And if that makes me the āproblem,ā then Iāll wear that title like a crown.
Until next time,
š¤ Daisy



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